There is no point to celebrate the 4th of July. Cool, we got independence? That's super. But there is no point, 200 and whatever years later to be blowing up fireworks for it. Whatever, there's no point in this.
I'm working and making no money. This sucks so hard. Everything is horrible right now. We are living the poorest we ever have. I hate being like this. "Sarah, use your paycheck to help." Screw that man, I'm selfish. I need my shows to keep me happy. They are the only thing I have left. I have friends, and stuff like that, but my shows let me cover up everything. I get to be happy and myself there. I get to forget about everything for a few hours in that day and just take in what a show brings me. It's the best feeling in the world, and I love it.
I want to be happy beyond belief again. This is the only feeling I can experience at shows right now. I want a life full of this feeling.
