I hate this.
I have a headache, bad dreams, horrible news, and paranoia keeping me up. I don't understand. Whenever the bright side is near I feel as if we fall into a ditch. I'm scared to death because of you. Leave us alone, please. I don't want this to end any more horrible than it already is. I don't enjoy crying each night about this but I can't help it. I don't know if I'll ever be strong enough to face you; all I have is words that I know mean nothing to you. I'm not as scared for me as I am for everyone else. (But I should know better, my pessimistic ways takeover in these situations.) I just need this all to leave my mind as hard as it is to deal with.
This is what I do to clear my mind:
It doesn't help though much though. Nothing does. Do you see what you're doing to me (us)?
I hate this.