Currently Listening : Butch Walker
a.) I miss that ^^^ man.
b.) I have a fever
c.) I have a LOT of topics and nonsense I need to post about, but this is me putting it off.
d.) Tomorrow (today) is a day of change.
e.) I hate you, I like you, I think you're the biggest liar ever, I miss you.
f. ) Just, whatever.
g.) fin.
h.) ps - happy birthday, L. (yesterday and today)
Monday, January 28, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
okay
Blackey is "okay," thanks for asking.
I'm okay, sort of, mostly.
You know what's not okay? The headaches I get from some people. I'm so fed up with a certain few people. 100% completely fed up with what I go through knowing these people. I'm tired of liars and braggers. Just be honest, is it that freaking hard? Stop taking what's mine. You don't have to be my twin for me to like you, I hate people that copy me. Its just disgusting how unoriginal and fake people I know are.
If you don't get the hint from this then you're definitely not "okay" up there.
I'm okay, sort of, mostly.
You know what's not okay? The headaches I get from some people. I'm so fed up with a certain few people. 100% completely fed up with what I go through knowing these people. I'm tired of liars and braggers. Just be honest, is it that freaking hard? Stop taking what's mine. You don't have to be my twin for me to like you, I hate people that copy me. Its just disgusting how unoriginal and fake people I know are.
If you don't get the hint from this then you're definitely not "okay" up there.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Today is a really bad day
Currently Listening : Waking Ashland - Take Me With You
I have a lot of things I could post and talk about. I had a great weekend, things are looking on the bright side, and I could go on and on about all of this. But today is not looking good, not at all.
I woke up at around noon, there's no school, so it's just a relaxing day. I walk out of my room, and I expect the first thing that always happens a this time; Blackey runs to me and we share our little moment. Today this did not happen.
Today, I looked for Blackey and he was not to be seen. I was told he was still in his cage. What? In his cage at noon? This was not my dog. I go over and he's hardly moving. He's just sitting there, looking the saddest he ever has. I know my dog, and I know this is not right. In the 10 years I've had this dog he has never acted in this manner. Yes, he's been sick before, but this is not sick. Something is completely wrong.
We got him out of his cage and he seemed almost normal. His nose was wet thankfully, but he was shaking and not walking. When I picked him up, he yelped. This scares me so bad. Balckey is my everything. I do not know what I'll do if anything happens to him. He's the most important creature in my life, and nothing will mean anything if I don't have my Blackey with me.
Today is a really bad day.
I have a lot of things I could post and talk about. I had a great weekend, things are looking on the bright side, and I could go on and on about all of this. But today is not looking good, not at all.
I woke up at around noon, there's no school, so it's just a relaxing day. I walk out of my room, and I expect the first thing that always happens a this time; Blackey runs to me and we share our little moment. Today this did not happen.
Today, I looked for Blackey and he was not to be seen. I was told he was still in his cage. What? In his cage at noon? This was not my dog. I go over and he's hardly moving. He's just sitting there, looking the saddest he ever has. I know my dog, and I know this is not right. In the 10 years I've had this dog he has never acted in this manner. Yes, he's been sick before, but this is not sick. Something is completely wrong.
We got him out of his cage and he seemed almost normal. His nose was wet thankfully, but he was shaking and not walking. When I picked him up, he yelped. This scares me so bad. Balckey is my everything. I do not know what I'll do if anything happens to him. He's the most important creature in my life, and nothing will mean anything if I don't have my Blackey with me.
Today is a really bad day.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
16 weeks
Until high school is over for me. This is one of the most absurd facts ever. I haven't taken my ACT/SAT, I still don't have my geometry credit, I have yet to decide what school I even want to apply to, and deciding exactly what I want major in is the hardest decision ill ever have to make.
Senior year is stressful. I'm ready to be done.
16 weeks.
Senior year is stressful. I'm ready to be done.
16 weeks.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
All Nighter
Currently Listening : Ben Kweller
I love Friday and Saturday nights when I can stay up til the sun is rising a new and everyone is about to wake up. Nights like that make me feel so sweet, almost invincible. I've never pulled an all nighter than actually stayed up the next day, but I'm sure that will happen in the near future.
So I saw Gallows on Thursday night, and myself and the other 30 people that decided to show up were really smart, to say the least. I hope they gain a bigger fan base so people feel stupid for not seeing them on this tour.
I honestly spend money like its going out of style. This needs to end. I don't like wasting my money on nonsense, but at the end of the day, that's all everything is, its all nonsense.
Happy birthday to you. Yes, you. You deserve it to be like this, I'm sorry. Being alive is all that matters.
I'm about to fall asleep. The couch is calling me...
I love Friday and Saturday nights when I can stay up til the sun is rising a new and everyone is about to wake up. Nights like that make me feel so sweet, almost invincible. I've never pulled an all nighter than actually stayed up the next day, but I'm sure that will happen in the near future.
So I saw Gallows on Thursday night, and myself and the other 30 people that decided to show up were really smart, to say the least. I hope they gain a bigger fan base so people feel stupid for not seeing them on this tour.
I honestly spend money like its going out of style. This needs to end. I don't like wasting my money on nonsense, but at the end of the day, that's all everything is, its all nonsense.
Happy birthday to you. Yes, you. You deserve it to be like this, I'm sorry. Being alive is all that matters.
I'm about to fall asleep. The couch is calling me...
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
_ _ _ _
blush.
smile.
laugh.
joke.
awkward?
hug.
peripheral glances.
elite.
common facts.
confused?
i am.
i have things to do and never enough time.
right now, i fail really bad at life.
smile.
laugh.
joke.
awkward?
hug.
peripheral glances.
elite.
common facts.
confused?
i am.
i have things to do and never enough time.
right now, i fail really bad at life.
Because I'm Ballin`
Currently Listening : Sigur Rós - Von
I really hate how much money I spend on stuff I honestly don't need. I don't need a new hoodie, why am I ordering one? I don't need new band merch, why do I look up more? I don't need and need and need more material items, but I still want and want and want and buy. I complain that I'm broke, but when I actually get some money, I blow it all on stuff I know I can live without. It's almost disgusting, and it's a waste. I feel like a hypocrite typing all of this really, but it's only the truth. I need to get better at things like this, as much as I feel it's a lost hope.
Hey, I'm a good samaritan, I gave blood today. It was painful (still is), but it made me feel like I was doing something really good (I was). I'm O positive, by the way.
My grandma left today...technically yesterday, whatever. That was the shortest/longest 3 weeks ever. I'm gonna miss being spoiled, her cooking, and feeling at home like I did 2 years ago. I hate to see her go, but maybe we can be 'one big happy' again some day.
WP is so close, but yet so far. I'll stop teasing and start producing soon, honestly!
Midterms being tomorrow...technically today, again, whatever. Let me express my excitement...
ok, I'm done.
stillsoconfused. Was that a hint? I need to stop reading so deep into nonexistent signs.
I really hate how much money I spend on stuff I honestly don't need. I don't need a new hoodie, why am I ordering one? I don't need new band merch, why do I look up more? I don't need and need and need more material items, but I still want and want and want and buy. I complain that I'm broke, but when I actually get some money, I blow it all on stuff I know I can live without. It's almost disgusting, and it's a waste. I feel like a hypocrite typing all of this really, but it's only the truth. I need to get better at things like this, as much as I feel it's a lost hope.
Hey, I'm a good samaritan, I gave blood today. It was painful (still is), but it made me feel like I was doing something really good (I was). I'm O positive, by the way.
My grandma left today...technically yesterday, whatever. That was the shortest/longest 3 weeks ever. I'm gonna miss being spoiled, her cooking, and feeling at home like I did 2 years ago. I hate to see her go, but maybe we can be 'one big happy' again some day.
WP is so close, but yet so far. I'll stop teasing and start producing soon, honestly!
Midterms being tomorrow...technically today, again, whatever. Let me express my excitement...
ok, I'm done.
stillsoconfused. Was that a hint? I need to stop reading so deep into nonexistent signs.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
3 Kings
Currently Listening : Anberlin - Adelaide
First of all, if you aren't Hispanic today really isn't your day because I get a second Christmas and you don't. Just one of the many reasons I love being Puerto Rican. Welcome the 3 kings to visit baby Jesus! Hah.
On to important things...
Okay, so I'm kinda doing something that's probably not really "right" but hey, it works for me. And maybe you for you too? Yeah okay, I'm not making any sense, but you and I both know we like what's become of this. Well, at least I know I do.
I was sick for 2 days and I missed 2 of the 3 days back to school, and blah blah blah, I'm screwing myself over, I know. How much do I care? Let's not even go there. I'm getting better, just 5 more months.
Hey Toni, thanks for the sweet Christmas gift, literally! Great minds think alike...you'll understand when you get your gift.
Tonight I'm starting on : WP projects, new music listening, tomorrow's homework. See, not as much procrastination, I'm trying!
I'm really not happy with this post, but it'll do with my few day absence.
First of all, if you aren't Hispanic today really isn't your day because I get a second Christmas and you don't. Just one of the many reasons I love being Puerto Rican. Welcome the 3 kings to visit baby Jesus! Hah.
On to important things...
Okay, so I'm kinda doing something that's probably not really "right" but hey, it works for me. And maybe you for you too? Yeah okay, I'm not making any sense, but you and I both know we like what's become of this. Well, at least I know I do.
I was sick for 2 days and I missed 2 of the 3 days back to school, and blah blah blah, I'm screwing myself over, I know. How much do I care? Let's not even go there. I'm getting better, just 5 more months.
Hey Toni, thanks for the sweet Christmas gift, literally! Great minds think alike...you'll understand when you get your gift.
Tonight I'm starting on : WP projects, new music listening, tomorrow's homework. See, not as much procrastination, I'm trying!
I'm really not happy with this post, but it'll do with my few day absence.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
2008
Currently Listening : Tegan & Sara - Back Of Your Head
Resolutions -
1. Finish High School and graduate with my class. This is going to be a challenge.
2. Get into college.
3. Get a new/better job.
4. Have clear skin.
5. Save some money.
6. Get my license.
7. Try really really really hard not to procrastinate. Like...really hard.
8. Have a picture published & do Project 366. (1 picture every day of the year.)
9. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ (This one is just too personal. If it's completed, I'll let you know.)
10. Keep my resolutions.
I've never really kept my resolutions, minus 2. One was to become a vegetarian. Done, and going on 2 years. The other was to be edge no matter how much people talk bad about it. Today is my 2 year for that as well. I want to treat these resolutions as a "to-do" list rather than a resolutions list, cause I want to complete every single last one.
I. Do. Not. Want. To. Go. To. School. Tomorrow.
I'm so over this.
Dear _______, Hope you're happy now that _____ and I are not involved in your life. If this is how you want things, so be it, enjoy your new attitude or whatever.
I'm happy.
Resolutions -
1. Finish High School and graduate with my class. This is going to be a challenge.
2. Get into college.
3. Get a new/better job.
4. Have clear skin.
5. Save some money.
6. Get my license.
7. Try really really really hard not to procrastinate. Like...really hard.
8. Have a picture published & do Project 366. (1 picture every day of the year.)
9. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ (This one is just too personal. If it's completed, I'll let you know.)
10. Keep my resolutions.
I've never really kept my resolutions, minus 2. One was to become a vegetarian. Done, and going on 2 years. The other was to be edge no matter how much people talk bad about it. Today is my 2 year for that as well. I want to treat these resolutions as a "to-do" list rather than a resolutions list, cause I want to complete every single last one.
I. Do. Not. Want. To. Go. To. School. Tomorrow.
I'm so over this.
Dear _______, Hope you're happy now that _____ and I are not involved in your life. If this is how you want things, so be it, enjoy your new attitude or whatever.
I'm happy.
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