reason to celebrate

my head is pounding. i have the worst stuffed nose ever. this is spring break and i'm sick, wtf.

htl was last night, soo good. the secret handshake is genious. "this song is about my herpes!" JESUS. All Time Low was lolarious.

This post seems so odd. I don't know. I need to see my show crew. It's wierd how good friends we are ever with the age difference. But I love them. Best friends cause of concerts and everything else doesn't even matter.

I'm meeting my oldest...or near close to oldest, Myspace friend tomorrow. Toni! Really, anyone who says Myspace is a trend, stupid, pointless, etc....I can prove them wrong. This girl and I are going on 2 years knowing each other, and she knows basically everything about me. I trust her as much as I do my "real life" friends. Without Myspace I would not know her and I am forever thankful to Tom to helping me meet my best friend. Toni knows everything about all my issues. And she gives the best advice. When you find a friend like this, you know you are blessed.

Best friend - New sn? Thanks for telling me? I'm sending you a gift with mixed feelings. I love you with all my heart, but you aren't trying anymore. Please let me know you still care.

Sidewalks don't exist in Florida.

Would that change things? A simple piece of concrete. To help navigate people down a path. Do we need that, to help navigate us onto the right path? It could make things work out a little clearer. I think we need a push in the right direction. Maybe. Maybe I just need to give up. Giving up is for losers. I guess I'm a loser.

Spring Break is just peachy btw. Not doing anything is great, and I really don't feel like going back to school though. It's not the work, it's just the atmosphere. Some people really do enjoy school, but I really think it's not for me. Just one more year though, just one more year.

I promise you will like me more if you just would stop acting like you don't like me.

Every Second Counts

I do not like you being friends with my friends. You guys are never supposed to meet or even know each other. I hate that you have brought them into our friendship and inside jokes. It's not supposed to be like this. I hate it. But I'm just gonna play along with it all of course. What else can I do? "Hey, you guys can't be friends, stop talking to each other" No, that's stupid and impossible.

It's 5am

You're probably way past sleeping. I don't know why I waste so much time on this. Can you give it back please? I'd highly appreciate it.

I hate the word "assuming"

i swear i forgot my password.

well, for all that it matters, i just couldn't get on because:
1. got my sidekick, and the best doesn't let me log on to this site.
2. i am a procrastinator, and uhm duh, that's nothing new.
3. i can't think of a good enough 3rd reason.

so basically this sums things up:
- got my lovely sk3 thanks to kristen on the 7th.
- TOC07 was canceled for Bert's voice and other made up reasons on the 8th. Cried, got mad, etc. Decided to go to the Orly show.
- Was kidnapped by Kristen and Jello on the 9th. Walmart at 2am is priceless.
- Went to Orly on the 10th. Tinker Field is made for Warped and nothing else. Show was incredible. Jared and Buddy climbed the risers, RJ is a crazy man, and The Used is my life. Nothing compares to the feeling of finally seeing them. Waiting til 3am for McCracken will always be the best decision I have ever made, and my mom is crazy. Yepp, that's basically it.
- Nothing else?

My wishes at 11:11 are still the same btw, I lied.

On a brighter note, I am now on Spring Break 2007. It's exciting I guess. The only thing I actually care about is sleeping in and chilling to the max. Maybe next year I'll have some real spring brake plans? Probably not. I'm meeting Toni hopefully though.

I don't think I have much else. I wish I could be more interesting.

I have no words for this.

So you get up, get ready, and are all set to go and get in line for you favorite band's first headining show in a good 2 years. This band is your life. They are the reason you are even in the scene. You've loved them for 4 year, and now you are fianally going to witness their glory. As you are about tp walk out the door, you get it, the im that will change the day's destiny. The show is cancelled. You cry your eyes out, you are furious. You don't even know what to do. Then 2 of the openers put on a sideshow...but wait, they bail out of that too. You and your bestfriends basically could sit in front of a moving truck and not care. But you gotta have some hope right? Some smidgen of fate? We'll see how that goes. Dear saturday, please don't let me down.
Oh, and how could it get worse? Toby isn't gonna be in spiderman four!??! Wtf, the world is ending.

she just needs to feel needed.

so what if i said i needed new friends yesterday. people's moods can change in a heartbeat. kristen is gonna sign for my phone, and now i'm in a good mood. i swear to god, i'd die without friends. they are the best thing next to everything. never do stuff you'll regret to your friends, really.

am i really that shallow? apparently my mood changes faster than i do for gym. if you ever read this, it isn't about you. but in the twisted way that fate works, it is. i can't believe you sometimes. i really don't hate you. honestly. i'm selfish, sue me. time to check my horoscope.

i'm sure my veggie burger is done. my koolaid is getting warm too.

This is me taking a stab at it...

Blog number one million and a half. I'm tired of starting these things like a new trend. Every time I'm annoyed I say it, "Okay, from here on out, I'm changing. I'm gonna write like no one's business and prove my point. I'm gonna change." Yeah, well my raging teen angst lasts anywhere from a day to a week, and after that, what happens? My posts get farther and farther apart, until I don't even remember my login name. So, why start again now? I honestly have no clue.

I just want to write. And for now, I don't want a soul to read (Except for YOU)

When I have best friends letting me down, and not even knowing what's really going on in my life, there's no telling who honestly cares anymore. This is just me ranting on and on about what I feel I need to rant on about. I'm not here to start anything. I'm not here to sound so ~cool~. I'm not here to make up metaphores, and sweet lines that will make you feel like I'm speaking another language. All I need is this place to type out how I feel, cause I'm too lazy to write it in a real journal, and I actually want to remember things in years to come. How often will I update this beast? Who knows. I'm hoping for the good though. And I'll really try...if I do anything, I'll try.