ahhhrrrgggg

Currently Listening: The Killers - Jenny Was a Friend of Mine

My insides are hating me soooo much right now. I ate 2 brownies and that was obviously a bad idea.

I'm procrastinating really horribly right now. My 2nd paper is due tomorrow and I'm roughly done, but I'd like to fix it up a bit. I'd also like to not do it at all. Oh the joys of life!

I need the next 4 days to sort of fly by. Good shows are coming up!

THEY LIED WHEN THEY SAID THE GOOD DIE YOUNG!

Currently Listening (nonstop) - Anberlin

Last night I saw Anberlin acoustic at this nice little record store by the beach. I'm really loving this band right now, and I'm glad we got to see them in such a cool way. Their headlining tour is going to be great.

New music right now is very A+. I'm liking everything I'm hearing, and starting next week I get to hear pretty much everything fresh and live. 14 shows in 2 months, holla holla at me.

It's nice knowing

Currently Watching: Top Design

I'll always be better than you.

"I'm a 'non-conformist' just like everyone else"

Currently Listening: Good Old War

Pages 29-40 define me from age 16 - present. It feels great to know that I'm not the only person thinking what I think. I see through the typos and find myself in between the lines. Thank you so much for the words that I've always wanted to say but never knew how.

(I want to be a minimalist)

I got a 20/20 on my first college paper. I know what its like to be proud of myself. What I don't know is how I'm going to live up to that grade. Hmmm. I can't say I'm doing too well seeing as how my first draft is due in 12.5 hours and all I have is my brainstorm (a bad one at that) done and I'm writing down these facts instead of working on getting them accomplished. Nevertheless, I'm currently and A+ student and by God, am I thrilled about that.

In other news, Clay Aiken finally came out. Hoorah!

GUESS WHAT TODAY IS?!

It is Friendiversary! Amber is sitting next to me right now reading some weird zodiac book and telling me random things I honestly could care less about. Vik went to bed about 4 hours ago because she's a party pooper. Anyway, this is our 2nd anniversary and it still feels like a week ago that we met. We'll probably tell that story 5 more times again today, but it's always fun to talk about. We're probably going to watch some band dvds now. Or sleep. Both sound great.


OH AND IN OTHER NEWS!
I AM A LICENSED DRIVER!!!

really man?

Currently Watching: David Letterman

I would do anything to fix everything. I wish this was last year again, it was a lot more simpler. Oh and go back to wherever you came from, PLEASE.

I'm really thrilled for Friday to be here. And Saturday for that matter. I love my 3 day weekends.

WORDS OF ADVISE: never ever ever ever watch the "controversial" version on the film 1984. HOLY MOLEY THAT WAS SO AWFUL.

I'm itchy all over.

Currently Reading: 1984

I have 12 bites on my legs. This sucks. I'm debating job hunting.
Yay/Nay/Shows need to stop.

chinese take-out night

Currently Watching: Batman Begins

Today was very up and down. I woke up feeling well below par. I don't know why, I was just really tired and not feeling too well. Class made me feel a billion times better, and then going to Starbucks was really nice. I'm topping the night off with some take-out, Batman Begins (which I've never seen) and some good/bad news about shows. Awesome.

I just deleted my Truth Box off of my myspace. I've had it for quite a while, and I got way more truths than I ever expected. Some I know exactly who left them and others I'll never know...honestly, I'm just glad I got them. Here's some of my favorites:
- I wish I would've gotten to know you...
- everyday i miss you more and more
- you are one of the meanest people i hardly know yet i wish i knew you more. (I totally do not understand this one, so that's why it's so memorable to me.)
- I think you are such a genuine person, honestly. & you talk to people without prejudgment. i wish there was a way we could see each other more!
- You are an amazing girl, and who ever knows you is lucky to have such a good person in their life.

:)

it's hard to keep a secret

Currently Listening: The Hush Sound - Momentum

This weekend was hard. I feel like I'm leading a double life now. I want to post so much more about everything but I can't. I really feel like I'm hiding in this blog again. I don't like this at all.

Hey man - GO AWAY.

Ignore that. Some random things I haven't talked about: I'll be a licensed driver super soon. I'm loving the idea of this, and of hanging out with Amber a ton more since I can go stalk her now! I spent $107 on JM tickets. If that show isn't everything and more I'll probably never see them again. And trust me, I'll keep my word just as I am for Panic. I'm getting $134 every other week from unemployment. Yes, I love free money. I'm loving using my camera more and more. I still suck at uploading though, sorry! I can't wait for Desperate Housewives to start, and ER. Project Runway is going good...minus Blaine leaving, what was that crazy mess about?! I miss talking to Toni a lot, we've been lacking some good stories lately. (sorry) I think that's about it. I'll be updating a lot more now that I don't have anything else to fill my days.

Oh, I almost forgot...my hair is black and I have a 3 week old beta named Fancypants.

you're moving away

now i've lost all hope.
when i said "i'll miss you" i meant it. seeing each other "soon" never happened. why?
goodbye and good luck, i('ll always) love you.

and for the record, you made my life a whole lot better. thanks.

911

I was in the 6th grade. I was putting on my shoes when the first one hit. I ran to my mom's room and watched them fall. At school everyone was whispering about it, we were worried we couldn't celebrate Amanda's birthday that day anymore. (We didn't) Nochawitz didn't even know it was
going on, and his brother worked there. Most of the day we sat in Christiano's room and heard about it, watching everything a 12 year old shouldn't be watching. One by one students got pulled out of class, as the Sears Tower could be a target, and their parents were worried. My
mom didn't get me early, but she did pick me up. On the radio the dj was discussing Bin Laden; this was a foreign name to me, I knew nothing about the people, nor had I ever heard about Iraq or any of those countries. All day I watched TV and learned and soaked up all of this new information. That night we sat outside in silence, along with all of our neighbors, and lit candles and waved our American flag proudly. This was my first experience at patriotism. This was my first experience with
mass hate. Mass destruction. Mass sadness. Mass grief. This was my first experience with the politics of the world, and from then on I craved learning more. I love that I live where I live (no matter the state) and that I have my freedoms. I will never forget September 11th.

what you do to me

Today in class we had to have our peer editors read our papers aloud to us. I had to tune mine out because I was too scared to get emotional and lose it in class. My face got hot and my eyes started to swell, but I fought back the urge.

I miss you.

VMAS

My 9th VMA's. This year was a big improvement from last year's, if I do say so myself. I've been watching this award show religiously every year since 1999, solely for Britney Spears. God, I love that girl and I'm so glad she finally one not one, but TREE awards. Overall, the show was a good B+ for me, not one of the best (those are definitely only held at Radio City), but not as bad as 07 or Miami.

I've been avoiding posting for a while. I'll be back soon, pinky promise.