I've waited patiently.

This Providence. Goooood God, I LOVE THEM. We (Tia, Vik, and....Jordan) took then Vitamin Water and Cliff Bars. "David, you're a weakling" "I know, I'm just a baby!" Oh gosh. Then afterwards, asking them all if they liked it, and being called amazing over and over again...simply the best ego booster ever. do something good for the people you love. it works out amazingly.

i made a new myspace because? because. ok. christ.

this weekend, dream will be come true. mcr and butch. i want to cry at how much fun i will have. amber is coming with us. we will be known. bobrah and gerber, 4lyfe.

sorry for the bad grammer. and puntuation and capitalization, and all that. but really who cares, it's just me here alone. i'll show you this one day, after the fact. or maybe, you'll read it years later. and all i want you to say is "wow." let's pinky promise that one, ok?

gross

I do not want to walk with you on the beach Fred. Where's Jack?

Missed the point?

Tell me if I should keep holding on any more.
Is this worth it? My stomach is in knots over you. Am I over you?
I just want it to be "us" again.



Maybe we could just move on.

Can you take it?

Just so you know. I type and say a lot of things in the moment. I need to stop this. I'm not thinking, just slipping up. I'm rolling faster on my words than if I was on a slip and slide. When you hit a rock, I guess you can forget about it, right? After the initial pain, there's not much left. Words cut like daggers. Spoken or typed. I take back what I said about 2 people in my last 2 posts. I don't want to mess things up. But sometimes I need a little help. A tap on the hand. Maybe even a kick in the baby maker. Just let me know you still care too ok? Don't leave me knocked over, or in pain after that misplaced rock. I'm trying to pick them up for you too.



Cause I can't take it.

Everything goes according to plan.

NEVER.

Spring Break was good. I met Toni, and she's just a cutie. Jack's Mannequin and Sugarcult were good. And before I get into it, I wish every major label band was just like Sugarcult. One of the best group of guys out there, and they get little to no credit for it. Why? Who knows. I need to listen to them more though, that's for sure.

School. Classes have been changed, and well, to say the least I've made new friends. I don't have any classes with the kids I love, and thats counting lunch. Well, at least we're getting down to about 35 days left, right? That is all that matters.

YOU ARE ANNOYING. POINT BLANK.

Honda Civic Tour was postponed. Jello jinxed it btw. I don't know. I was sad...but now I don't really care. I mean there's nothing I can do about it, right? So whatever. "Personal Issues" my arse.

Toonss of CIWWAF drama. Jack left. Fred is temp back. People are throwing riots. I still love them. I have no reason to be mad at Shaant, or anyone for that matter. If it's for the better than so be it.

I'm trying to avoid the fact thats this isn't really a real post. ( I don't even know what that means. ) I'm trying to make this sound like just cause I haven't updated in a week it's ok. To others, sure that's fine. To me, not so much. It keeps my mind clear. I am too scared of forgetting everything so it must written down. Of course, this writing is via the lovely internet, because I trust it? Not really. But now I'm just trying to convince myself of something that I still have no idea what I'm rambling about.

I want things to get better ok? Stop being annoying and just face the truth.